Why I Don’t Have A Girlfriend

Today is my birthday.

My birthday is usually a sacred day to me. One of quiet reflection for the year just passed, and of hopeful intention and planning for the one that lies ahead. This year will be no exception, of course, and circumstance has provided an extra catalyst for that purpose.

Early this morning I posted something witty (at least I thought so) on Facebook:

Today is my birthday.
Instead of leaving kind messages or donating to a worthy cause on my behalf, please just send presents. I’d like an iPad. Or a girlfriend.

The message got plenty of response. Some laughed because they also thought I was witty, but other responses were on the “girlfriend” issue. Some were surprised that “a guy like me” didn’t have a girlfriend (whatever that means). Some were plain curious as to why, a very kind bunch offered to help fill the position (thank you ladies [and gentlemen]), and then another group seemed skeptical – almost accusatory – as if there were something wrong with me for not having a girlfriend.

So, Do I Have a Problem?

Plenty, of course. A post to detail all of my flaws and faults would take up more space & time than even Einstein could calculate. But, to be fair, isn’t that the way it is with everyone?

It’s not a question of whether we have baggage or not, but more a matter of how well we carry our baggage.

We all have our issues, but having issues doesn’t stop us from having a girlfriend, boyfriend, hamster, goldfish or even a parking space. Apart from a recent & minor case of “trust-issue-itis” I’d like to think that I carry my baggage well. I’ve made it a priority to do the work necessary to, as Paulo Coelho would admonish, to “not let my wounds turn me into someone I’m not.

In fact, not having a girlfriend for the last year has been a huge sign of success. I’ve been mastering my current “homework assignment from the Universe” to say no to the ones who are not the one. (Reading this post will help explain the rest of what I’m going to say)

This homework assignment has been an insightful one. Difficult, at times, to go on dates and say “you are a beautiful, amazing, wonderful woman and would make a great life partner…. for someone else.” Difficult, but necessary. I’ve learned that just because I get along really well with – or am attracted to – someone, that it doesn’t mean they are the puzzle piece I’m looking for.

During the summer I posted this:

People have been asking me about my dating life lately, so here’s the update.

I’ve met someone special.

He is a tall, handsome, kind Canadian man. I’ve become quite attached to him and the feelings of appreciation for his goodness grow stronger every day. It is safe to say that I’m in love.

His name is Joseph.

I intend on seeing him exclusively until I find something comparable in a female version.

While slightly humorous, it’s also accurate to where I’ve been for a while.

In this past year I’ve met countless amazing people and went on a zillion first dates (a couple 2nd dates, and even one 3rd date) and have had a lot of great experiences. Many times, if I were only listening to how I felt in my heart at that moment, I may have landed myself a girlfriend. But, I’ve learned that the “inner whisper” speaks to both our minds as well as our hearts. Finding this harmony between the head and the heart is where true spiritual alignment begins, and when miracles can begin. (Yes, perhaps some might even consider me finding a girlfriend a miracle…)

But in the process of saying “no” more times that I ever expected I would, something beautiful has happened: I have gained some perspective on this puzzle called life. While I was steadfastly saying “no”, I was also quietly putting many of other puzzle pieces together… And, as with any puzzle, the more pieces you put in place, the more obvious it becomes which piece you need to fill the space that remains.

As saying “no” has become easier, it has also become incredibly clear what the “yes” piece will look like. I know who she is, and she’s amazing. She’s worth the wait…

  • Jennifer

    Well said and well lived.  Keep waiting… she, and all that come with her, will be well worth your wait. :)

  • http://twitter.com/beatriz1986 Beatriz B

    I love this post! Very well said.

  • Wwleaderashley

    Well written. Life is so funny and the people we meet make the journey that mucho more entertaining and delightful.

    Happy birthday sir, here’s to another delightful year.

    xo

  • Camjack07

    Great blog. Great perspective. Don’t settle, wait until she comes along. 

  • Sally

    Being single is awesome and really a journey about finding out what you want and don’t want in a partner as well as what you are willing to compromise on. I agree. Hold out and she will definitely be worth the wait and yet you won’t be able to remember what it was like without her. In the meantime- enjoy the ride! :) I just did a brief discussion on this so thought I would share. http://girltalkwithmarlo.com/dating-disasters-self-discovery

  • http://twitter.com/REBECAS_JUST Rebecca

    beautiful…

  • Jenna Farelyn

    This is a really really insightful post.  And while I’m waiting for my divorce to finalize, the wisdom gives me things to think about. Thank you.  And I’m so glad that you’re (mostly) happy with the perspective that you’ve gained from this last year of really listening to your mind and heart. 

  • Cami Hewett

    Your writing here really does it for me, Joseph. My favorite line is: We all have our issues, but having issues doesn’t stop us from having a girlfriend, boyfriend, hamster, goldfish or even a parking space. I like how it demonstrates your capacity to move easily inside global and local spaces. 

    I hope you’ll keep us posted on your discoveries. 

    Maybe it would be helpful if you could invent an inflatable girlfriend for use in appropriate circumstances, such as in shallow conversations, in invitations you’d like to refuse, and in the HOV lane.